Glass pear

Lovers come and lovers go,
Once they lived but now they're ghosts,
Walking the streets they used to know like shadows.

People disappear every hour and every year,
Sometimes I believe they're here like shadows,
Like shadows.

Who can you trust, in this place?
And whom can I put my faith?
If you're real, then show me now,
Who you are.

How can I love, without grace?
Shine a light on your face,
If you're real, then show me now,
Who you are.

Blowing like a secret wind,
Pouring on my naked skin,
Like a river flowing in the ocean.

And when I turn to see your face,
I saw a joy I could not place,
Vanishing without a trace,
Like a shadow in the sun.

Who can you trust, in this place?
Where can I put my face?
If god is love, then why the world the way it is?

How can I love, without grace?
Shine a light on your face,
If you're real then show me now,
Who you are.

My ghost.

Like I say, if your as indecisive as yours truly, gotta keep your hands to yourself.

when play around , sitting on the fence is your thing, be careful of your steps.

Say , the heart chooses what it wants.

Desiderata.

Go placidly amid the noise and the haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.

As far as possible, without surrender,
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even to the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons;
they are vexatious to the spirit.

If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain or bitter,
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.

Exercise caution in your business affairs,
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals,
and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love,
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment,
it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.

Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be.
And whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life,
keep peace in your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.

" Dont be reckless with other people's heart ,don't put up with people who are reckless with yours"

Isnt it beautiful? This poem.

Take heart and breathe in the words like it was the only thing that feeds your soul.

I had a great great weekend. Tiring but super great.

Thank you God for that christmas gathering , for making it easy and amist great people who loves You.

Thank you for the wonder time spent surrounded with people who loves me.

I wonder if mr neverland would make me happy, what do you think God?

(:

I hope Monday would be awesome.

No! It definitely will be!

Goodnight.

Pointing fingers & tooties rolls.

"First I was dying to finish my high school and start college.
And then i was dying to finish college to start working.
Then i was dying to for my children to grow old enough so i could go back to work
But then i was dying to retire.
And now i am dying.
and suddenly I realized I forgot to live.

Please don't let this happen to you.
Appreciate your current situation & enjoy each day.


- To make money we lose our health,
& to restore our health we lose our money.
We live as if we are never going to die
and we die as if we never lived."


I needa to start getting rooted.
I had an amazing Saturday , got a glimpse and definitely a good feeling of what used to be and how much I missed out on. I used to resent and felt bad for myself for not being as much as a part of that group as I was, but I learned that , as life passes by , I will have more things on my plate, and still 24 hours 7 days a week , 12 months , 365 days. So you take some and leave some, try your best to stay in the loop, drop out sometimes cause life takes a toll, but always make sure, the people you care about , knows you care. Dropping a text occasionally takes only 10 seconds at most. If they dont understand , or get mad at your, pardon them, they probably misses you. Or, you just didnt show them that you care.

So remember, if you love someone, if you care about someone, remember to let them know.

I had tons of laughter, tons of memories flash backs, how the entire group changed, new people, old people, how different it is. Sometimes I still miss that friday group. That never fails to make me smile and look forward to it, we were a happy bunch of silly people.

Work tomorrow! And I appreciate my situation and my life and I lift up my Monday to God.
Today during sermon, it was about, investing time and money into things that are uncertain and are going to be ruin in the end, what you spend your time & money on, reflects your inner values.

Goodnight beautiful people.


~ Sometimes, I still blame you , blame you , for what exactly I dont know. Maybe for how sometimes I feel, all those emotions rattles and keeps me at bay, doubting myself. If I got one shot, I will still have taken it.
& I should keep that thought out of my mind.

x

emotionally incapable.

Saturdays breeze.

"To catch a cheap ride and go through the motions for just one night only.

such a cheap shot to attain a sort of emotional balance.

to play pretend that your normal, that your capable of, not just fun, but having a heart that could be given freely, emotions that you can twirl with and give without considering the options and the tons of decisions to make . I take alot of comfort that these emotions are not gone through solo alone but being experience by millions out there. That tummy rolling and feeling that cache in your throat, feeling the urge to suddenly choke at real life profession of that word Love. Not Love as a noun but Love as a verb. Then the realization of that emotion will drive anyone insane. What keeps balance is that watching it on screen or in books seems plausible, with no dying urges to get out and play pretend. However, seeing it around real people, with that real passion present around in the air, i feel the need to get out and breathe. And wonder, how can they say things like " here i am, my heart is yours".

Something is dying , something is twisted.

& I can only pray, that I am not alone in this and that God gives me a door that I can open."

~ Emotionally handicap.

Sweet cherries bonito.

Hello jello world.

I havent blogged in awhile since work as you know.

Neither have i been gymming so i have been growing sideways sorta.

Soo thus my week has been filled with healthy food and finding a new passion for work outs no matter how tired i am. and sinting for like working out with me and what, i am so weak i cramp both my legs while doing tummy exercises. hohoho hahahaha so embarrassing. Oppsy still though I had two tall starbucks today. what to do, hoho.

Okay the weekend is here so i am happy.

sad because my colleague nigel is leaving ):

so that means work is just going to get more challenging.

and teehee i got a new laptop, teehee and i got no idea exactly how to use and i am far too lazy to read the manual. Will do it over the weekend. Its gg to be a good weekend packed with activities and loove (:

i wanna watch the match between barcelona and real madrid ! heard it was a really good match.

Okay sleep now! I wonder whose gg to win the bid to host the world cup!

~ If a being is as indecisive as yours truly, its best advice to keep your hands to yourself.

The pursuit of happy-ness.

True faith flowers from and through doubt.

If you never questioned your beliefs, - you are just a puppet dancing to somebody’s strings. If God had wanted your mindless obedience, you would’ve been created without mind and without free will. But you have both so you can come to God of your own accord. Just look at the lives of saints, - most of them had gone through a dark night of the soul, and that’s why their faith was so strong. The path to true faith always goes through doubt. So ask those questions you’ve always been afraid to ask, and find the answers, and then your faith will become unshakable.

-annoymous.

What drives me crazy insane is the battle between worldly possessions and giving up all for the glory of God. I dont quite understand the path, betweens the Wants and Needs. It's difficult to differentiate and actually honestly thats the easy part, whats really difficult is, after being able to differentiate it, sticking with your answers. Thats the part I find tough.

There's always a truckload of factors that affects your decisions or path when you pursue your happy-ness. And then again, what defines happy-ness differs from every individual. But, correct me if I am wrong. At the end of the day, after when the curtains are drawn in, you lock your door, you wash up, clean your teeth, change into your pjs, bounce into your warm bed, doesnt everyone just want a bit of Love? Love encompasses so much, hope, joy, comfort, shelter, patience, forgiveness, pillar, gentle, grace , hah pretty much all nice words associates itself through Love. It all starts from there.

So then the pursuit of happy-ness, in my opinion, lies alot in Love. Im not just speaking about Love in terms of a boyfriend girlfriend kinda love, I honestly think it's beyond that realm. I believe wholly that there's a greater force out there pulling all our lives strings, why? Simply, cause, though we might be wise, but we are just comparing to the human race and nothing else beside that. Though we form and manufactured, discovered and created, when what matters the most happens, for example, A passing of a love one, that is out of our control. Something out there, someone one, my God, is spinning this world. & He's mighty to save.

Life is difficult, no one said it was going to be easy. Life with its confusing paths and decisions, choices you have to make. If i pursue Life according to my heart, wholly just according my heart, I wont be at a desk for one third of my day, and not enjoying it. Why pursue something that doesn't even make you feel a tad of joy? And even spending that kind of time on it? I want to be one of the lucky individuals that ended up doing something that can profit enough to pay bills but the passion of it runs in my blood. Just scares me a tad when it feels like a vicious cycle that I dont know is worth it or not.

Its scary, cause you know, guess what? It's already coming the end of November.
Time passes impossibly fast.

& its impossibly hard to get a grip on it.

I still dont know how people do it, do that easy sorta lovey dovey thing.

It's weird , hah at least to me.

Goodnight.

Thank you God for getting me thru today.

A distant 3 years yesterdays.

x

the social network.

okay, lately ive been busy , busy and tired so usually instead of staying behind the lappy blogging or using much of the internet, im out and about or just lazing , reading. hahaha so anyways a random update, i wanted to post all the past dates photos up but i am far toooo lazy and now its already 11.20pm, i should be crashing soon. So perhaps, another day. hahaa another day will come soon.

ed's 20th birthday.
drinks and chill meet up with mark's cousin on some tuesday in the month of oct, timbre.

jesse's 21st bday!
halloween 2010.
that night at zouk in occt.

that random night at zouk with ed , lionel.... hahaha i dont remember.

okay i lazy to blog already.
I watched social network earlier on. it is pretty awesome.
what can i say? hahaha but i got alot of questions i wanna ask mark zuckerberg.
why the movie kinda protray him as a douche bag friend in some scene?
I mean i understand sorta but why he came off quite a bad friend?
but besides, hahaa i admire his sacarsm . Whats there not to like?

okay crashing.
xx.