fleeting moments.

*As i struggle to break free to step out to take the first step again to open again to all the many firsts , i am being subtlety reminded of all the what could have been what used to be what we both were all about . i see all the potential in you and i am upset that you arent there yet , but perhaps , for a fact, its such a big difference that it isnt the same potential anymore. i wish you put your heart out there to things that really matters, if you open your eyes carefully, you will realize the wrongs you been doing or perhaps the good you could be doing , the effect you cause by just your doings , your silly concoction in your head , ideas i do not know where you get from, to come to use to distaste me. why cant you just accept what happened between us and move past it? even if one day you were to lose your memory, there is still no denying what happened in the past. it doesnt have to hold you down, but to admit it was there, it happened, things happened, we happened, its important. Thats why, its important who you choose to give a piece of yourself too, because, you can never ever get it back. Memories forged, names carved into backlogs and forever.. it will etched.

you broke me, why do i feel responsible for all of this then? why do i feel like its the other way around? why do i feel as though you are punishing me for all i did, when all i did was to give and love.

too long for the memories to stick, only fleeting moments of remembrance.

goodnight.

xx

a whirlwind romance.

Greetings after super long. ;)

ps: I hear daddy taking his favourite potato chips out from aussie outside hahaha and my mum is sipping my belvedere black intense vodka with orange, my parents, are lovely ;)

After 21 years of living, i still do not know how to properly balance my time, i still do not have enough time to keep up with alot of things , alot of people, or even myself. But! still, a pat on my back for surviving after so long. I think theres are studies done that show how many degree of friends you can stay in contact with in your life time, i must have read it somewhere though i cant really figure out what the number was. I googled " How many people can you stay friends with in your life " and they only showed me many websites on " how do you stay friends with your ex boyfriends " , " Is it possible to stay friends with your ex boyfriend ? " goodness me. where on earth was the word boyfriend even in my search query?

Alright sweet pea, i gotta sleep but.. lately tons of things are happening (there's always tons of things going on hehee) , i still pretty much do the same thing, work , eat (tons of food! evitablely too much, but my tummy is very satisfied) , partying (yes partying.. tried cutting down but.. sigh trying trying, lesser then as compared to when i was 18 for sure!) , avalon lauch , events , sherilyn's return to sg , scb charity event , mbs hotel party, surprise birthdays.. for some reason, that i personally reckon is people in general enjoy making love during the holidays. Because! there are tons of birthdays during the Sep and Oct windows. Why!? Perhaps holidays lighten people up, loosen their mood and well, presents make people happy. I have been to, SO MANY birthdays! but I am very thankful for being part of their lives duh. And i have been watching more movies, so up to date with movies now, im a happy chipmunk. Okay , spam some photos after such a long time.

UBIN TRIP! (: my first time. hehe

avalon grand opening.
my new specs!
soccer at kallang! the boys.
the champs girls. (:
scb charity event at ecp

my cousin's airforce social night.
having sherilyn back (:

Spencer's birthday lunch. (:
Butter with jerrie, on a wednesday night! never been out on a wed night for... 2 years? hahaha.
LION KING with douglas!

lionel's post birthday with our fav prawn!

the girlies at eric's surprise bday at winebar!


happy 24th birthday eric!

getting dolled up and waiting for k [:

Prata themed birthday (:

RELLE'S 18th surprise birthday party (:

I need to seriously learn how to sleep more & blog more so i'll be able to look back perhaps 5 years later and see if, what made me upset then, does it matter much now?

And let me know leave you with this question,

When it's all said and done, will you have said more then you've done?

my current fav car. aston martin vantage v12.

GOODNIGHT.

beauty?

Beauty is questionable.

Being content is difficult.

Being envious is fine.. working hard to keep at it is fine.

But all in all, gotta get your heart right with God , all decisions and choices made, depends on wheres the root coming from.

~ besides, i reckon when sometimes someone wants to be in your life, they make time. Not alot of time, cause i definitely understand that Time is so minimal nowadays.. but i dont appreciate it when you know i need you there at a certain point of time but you chose to disappear and come ask me about how i am doing about a particular situation days after. well.. of course im fine, i coped without you being around. gotta make peace.

ive been home the entire weekend guys.

first time in a looooong time.

gotta sleep for church!

nighty.

xx