2009.

I do not enjoy you & the fact of your barriers are still hurting me in certain ways, I do not know how to work my way around it cause there's no other routes to go except head on face plunge. And it's not going to be pretty. I can keep putting it off but apparently it got to me tonight , but I know I am still going to be put it off. ): Perhaps you were not worth all these unnecessary aches.
But , I am glad that our plan for the new year is coming to a full circle. So goody! One thing to be happy about. Fingers crossed for tomorrow! It's going to be a good gooood night!

10 things I appreciate from 2009.
. Getting friends like nizam alex naz justin ken kevin & ed .
. Developing closer & tighter relationships with melody h melly l lionel sherilyn jeremy k
. Still keeping contact with lizzy melanie and sherry.
. Doing well enough in school and moving up to the following last semester
. My amazing family staying healthy & safe
. Being much closer to my kiddy sister Anna Belle
. Me improving and learning to able to let go when issues cant be solved
. Me becoming a better person instead of the other way around
. God's goodness for me even when I am not particularly at my best behaviour
. Being able to go to aussie for 2 weeks ish, one of the best trip in my life

1 thing I do not appreciate in 2009 is, a bunch of friends moving more or less apart
2nd thing I do not appreciate in 2009 is, your invisible barriers hurting me

but all in good of time! happy new year lovelies.

xoxo, mandy.

Second chance.

Had a horrible bad bad baaaaad day, but seeing some people made me skip a beat.
xoxo, mandy.

Hamlet, to Thine Own Self, Be True.

I do not want to be back. Dont get me wrong, I love here, mainly cause my family is here & my friends. But it's so filled with drama and expectations and life, gets me feel so dense and down. I do not think I need to acquiesce into alot of things that I feel obligated to, so yes, so goes the Shakespeare quote, " To thine own self, be true. " I dont know if it silly or sounds off, but I do not feel good here. Being there, makes me happy, so be true. Oh life, oh God, wove that country into my life.

xoxo, mandy.

Bitter sweet.

Hello sweeties, Im back! Miss me much no? heehee. But I so do not wanna come back , s.e.r.i.o.u.s.l.y ): I keep thinking of what would it be like it I didnt leave, if my daddy didnt miss those 3 stupid little puny points , what would I be like now? better? worse? I dont know, I made so many awesome friends being here so I guess, all in God's ultimate big plan aye.

Alright, but I am very happy with the amount of stuffs i bought hahaha, imagine, one big luggage for my own clothes , one carton of new stuffs , one carton of presents. I spent most of my money on presents k! So love me people! Im awesome am I not? (:
Anyways! I hardly got any sleep last night cause of the morning flight that I just took and Ive been busy the last few hours unpacking and unpacking, and more unpacking. I am gonna take a breather then get back to unpacking then dress up for a good christmas eve party!

I cannot wait.

xoxo, mandy.


Merry Christmas Lovelies.

Good morning beautiful city.

I love this book. Imagine this, me bubble bathtub cherries peaches music & a amazing book.

Good times.

Another day at the beach! I can't wait.

ps: I met my melanie peanut today! I literally jumped when I saw her at the hotel lobby, totally enjoyed my day, cant wait for another extra -awesome - ness day. Take care munchkins

Psss: HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY MISSY SHERILYN , LOVE FROM HERE , SEE YOU WHEN IM BACK , REALLY MISSED U!

xoxo, mandy.

Hello from 3000 miles away.

Hello sexy little thangs , hahahahah! Im having so much fun here why on earth would I head back? Oh wait, then again, hahaa I miss my sexy little munchkins too. Oh well, hehee just a couple more days! Bitter sweet I must say, but hey! At least I really had a great time here.

xoxo, mandy. Please take care!

Hello & Goodbye.

Hello & Goodbye.
Alas' finally a good break.
See you munchkins when I do!

xoxo,mandy.

Dont you dream in black and white?

I'm all kind of awesome, what's there not to like ? as least thats what I tell myself every day.
Maybe the question isnt what's there not to like, but perhaps, is it enough?
But then again, think it's me & that goldfish attention.

i love my days lately.

xoxo mandy

Talking about the future love.

a couple of years.
and I’m gonna know your name.
it’s like I waited for you forever.
and I know this might sound insane.
but it won’t be long
til’ we’re gonna take this up.
what I’m talking about our future love.

it’s so far away.
and baby you’re right next door.
got me picturing your face again.
something worth waiting for.
i put all others behind me.
they don’t live up.
i know what I want what I need to the T.

baby if they ask me.
i would say I don’t even know your name.
and when they ask me:
does it change?
no it don’t change a thing.
’cause it’s something about the way you love me.
and it’s something about the way you know me.
that I can’t explain enough.

just something about our future love future love future love.
something about a future love future love future love.

walking hand in hand.
going on the second date.
i can picture how we’re touching
and the kiss I can almost taste.
i imagine the all the ways.
we meet for the very first time.
i can see the place feel the love at first sight.

For Melo, remember Future Love.


Oh by the way, Jerrie is a.w.e.s.o.m.e ! He went to town to collect Melvin's yummy angkukweh and then drove to my place to pass them to me.

The past 4 days has been insane, nothing but fun. Plus good seeing some of the people I love alot, getting to party , getting to play l4d 2 vs mode and thrashing other people heehee, having good thai food , celebrating pixie mich birthday , buying alot of things! getting to know new people again. Amanda's back, same old but brand new. Blog more tomorrow, I need to get around packing , 15 days is long.

mandy's junk. hehehe.

xoxo, mandy.

Buttered.

I Do Not Understand How I Managed to Party 3 Times A Week and Sleeping At 6am Every Night For The Past 4 Days. No More Again, Even If It's Awesomely Fun. I Am Too Sore Everywhere. And For My Small Eyes To Have Eyebags, It's A Signal.


xoxo.

Get buttered!

Bash and Pag 09. It's been 1 whole entire year since the last B&P. I miss having these late sessions , brain storming moment, being made to gel and bond and then coming out the entire year with a group of awesome friends that I know even we dont spend much time together, forgoing one another's flaws , will always be pillars in each other's life.

Tonight we're gonna celebrate Michellepixie birthday at butttteeeeer. So get ready to get buttered baby!

and psst im deleteing my 3214 inbox worth of message. Always wanted to slowly patiently keep those I wanna read again but never got around it and it keeps getting more. So , bye to all those memories all the way dated to june.

xoxo, mandy.

The big bang theory = love

Two good nights in a row, what more can I ask for ?

My feet is fucking painful.

Counting down the days !

I still want a kittttty

xoxo, mandy.

The friday gang.

2008 , 2009. The friday clique.
We met every friday because they had boarding school and we had school. We spent almost every weekend doing something, movies , rockband , guitar hero , baking , wii , pool , being at one another's competition , swimming , taboo , bbqs . We had stayovers every weekend, we laughed till our tummy aches all the time, bullying newbies. Now , we hardly meet up , we miss the two boys, well at least i know I miss the two of them plenty. Good 2 years, fingers cross for more to come.

sash relle jeet leo drew mandy.








when nostalgic takes over, i can smell the scent of you,
hear your voice ringing inside my head,
scenes goes into over drive kept repeating itself.
Scary isnt it?
Got me choking back emotions.
then I sigh and thank God for everything that happened
even the painful periods.
Look at me now, Im on my way to being great.
Have you seen or know this Amanda?
I started all over again , and I'm flying high.

" Part of me will always beat for you ,
but it's okay because I've let you go with the wind a long time ago.
I hope you have a great life.
I know I will. "

You had the best of me, but , it's only for now.

xoxo, mandy.