Sleepless in the city of lights.

It doesnt help that alot of things just constantly piles up

and then it gets a bit difficult to breathe.

Being so used to solid ground, with the map just taken off your feet suddenly,

what happens? you feel so lost and confused.

tightness and the need for a refuge. thats when I remember that no matter what,

no matter how things are going to be, there is always You.

My shield , my fortress , my everything.

Seek You always first. So thank you for making all things new.

Keep my thoughts all on you.

Taking a chill pill and only praying for the best.

So I heard this story in church today, it goes something like that.

Theres a wise man that lives along the frontier of China.

So basically horses there are pretty much "treasures" in that area.

One day, one of his horse ran away and didnt come back.

All the neighbors swing by and offered their sympathies,

however this is what the wise old man said,

"What makes you think that this supposedly disaster is not a blessing?"

Months later, the horse came back, except, she came back with a mighty stallion.

So once again all the neighbors hurried over and congratulates the old man,

once again this wise old man said " What makes you think this so called blessing isnt a disaster in disguise? "

With the two horses, this household started to prosper, this wise old man has a fine young man that enjoyed riding the mighty stallion all the time. But, alas one day, he fell and broke his hip, leaving him crippled. So once again, all the neighbors offered their sympathies.

And of course, the wise old man said " What makes you think this isnt a blessing in disguise?"

Then, war began. All able men had to go for war. Being in the frontier, they were required to fight. All except the wise old man's son.

I guess, that moral is that, you never know, you never know what to expect, and only God knows what the future holds. Though it might be grim and dark right now, hold steadfast, hold tight and learn to trust.

So, all in all, i lift my entire life, to You and You alone.

Goodnight.

xx

I dont know how to love fast & love without rules.

Come let's beat together.

Daily walk.

I snagged myself an awesome friend who actually sent it to my office. Hahah you know who u are, thanks, appreciate it like nuts.

~ Conflicting natures brings about conflicting thoughts that never seems to be able to co exist. To do this, or to do that? What would people say? Does it matters? Apparently so. What do you want? Is this it? No.. But what about responsibilities? What about certain dreams? Necessary steps for doors to open. Pursue of beauty never stops, where's the boundary? Is it okay to go under the knife solely for beauty? Then again, what defines it? If it makes you happy.. That life style, so seemingly vibrant, beats with green streaks all over the white mask. Conflicting morals with a passion wants & needs that never quite make sense.

Do you know what I am talking about?

Do you know what you want?

If so, how far?

Isnt it funny to be excessively portraying sadness without realizing that the emotion exist in the first place?

Goodnight.

Gotta be somebody.

darn right.

i shall save myself the troubles of blues and just play the notes how i always do.

xx

okay i needa sleep.

xx

In repair.

If i dont want it to run dry and you play little tricks on me, sigh, it will run dry.

Whose to blame? aint me.

I wont chase for long especially when it pulled strings already, its dangerous .

egoistic too.

Or shall we make it clearer, its not as though I aint up for it.

Just dont do the hide and seek.

its me, you are talking about.

donr know how i survived this long without sleeping.

crashing now.

xx

* we are the most ridiculous familiar strangers ever, its a joke. but i always only wish you well.

xx