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‎25th Aug 2012

Post Faith Sermon.

This sermon particularly highlighted to me the importance to check my heart when I pray. I do believe that whenever we pray about certain "choices" or "decisions" we tend to already kind of make up our mind, that is sometimes a bit dangerous because you know.. you tend to hear/see what you want to hear and see. That can be very misleading, so I am reminded that when I come to the Father to pray about something, I check my heart. To make sure that, sure.. there might be a possibility that I am leaning more towards a certain decision more so than the other... but to have a heart that is after God and His will for me. 

Pastor also mentioned about paying attention to the process. True, the end result , end product is something that entices us to even begin to want to begin a journey. But we cannot forget that the process is very important. It gets us to where we are meant to go. When we are face with the question if we want to seek God & His will, for me, my answer is yes. Of course it is not easy but I have come to realize that His ways are always better than mine, what He has planned for me will always be better than what I think I know, because.. the fact is I do not know. It all starts with the heart, so I pray that my heart desires will be to please God and not men or even myself, to have my desire to please Him to be stronger than any disability that tries to stop me from doing what He has planned for me.

He also reminded me that I already have His general will with me, the bible. He will be same today, yesterday and tomorrow. Nothing He says will contradict the written Word. Before my specific will comes along, I first have to abide in His Word. Because I need to be able to sieve out the noise and listen clearly to Him , we will make mistakes, hear wrongly but God, He who is perfect, will never make a mistake. So I am praying this week , I will have a heart that desires are to please Him and no one else. That I am make sure my daily quiet time is to listen to Him instead of "ranting" off. To listen and to wait upon His word.

Thank you for the word Ps Daniel.

Love,
Amanda.

Have a good week ahead lovelets, see you guys wed.

♥

Death.

He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds. Psalms 147v3

For everything else that is more important than the nitty gritty of life, 

I pray You give comfort, shelter to both her and her family.

Thru this difficult time, to show Yourself so clearly she can no longer deny You,

instead of running further away, she will draw closer to You.

God , my dear Lord Almighty, I pray You saturate her in Your Love.

That she knows that you are right there, loving , caring , understanding her.

I pray you help me to help her, to be strong for her.

I pray you first soften her heart, so she will allow You in , to allow me in.

I pray you cuddle her tonight to sleep, let her know that you collect every teardrops of hers.

We might not understand why some things happens the way they do but we need to trust in You.

Because You are the only one that is certain, nothing else is.

Just hold her tight, hold her so very tight, embrace her, fill her anew with Love, that you might not deliver her from this but You are right there with her, going through it together.

Let her learn to reach out when she needs too, let her learn to rely at least on You and people You place in her life, that she knows that human flesh is weak but strength drawn for you will gives us strength to carry on, grace to endure the hardship.

Let her know that you know she is hurting, that her heart is broken but You are right there, right beside her, reaching out, waiting for her to just reach out and collapse into your arms. Please keep knocking on her door, so she knows that You love her so very much. That every amount shes hurting, you are hurting even more. That though things are blurry now, confusing even, she'll learn to trust in You.

Hold her heart in your palms, Lord I pray, protect and be strong for her.

Saturate her with Your Love , allow her to be soften to know so many loves her too.

I pray against the devil and his disgusting negativity thoughts, Lord I pray you remove all of it, I cast them out in your name.  Fill her only with love, strength drawn from you so she may carry the weight, softening of the heart so she allow people you placed in her life to help her carry the weight. She must not go thru this alone. For You are there for her.

Fill her with your love, cuddle her, love her.

Amen.

Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted . Matthew 5v4

For He is always faithful.

Lately I've drawn closer to God, for reasons both known and unknown. 

He has shown me that I cover up alot of things, pushing mountains under the carpet.

Hiding it away. What got me really upset with myself that I didnt see that I did not know my God enough to know that there was nothing with hoping, with wanting something. How is that possible? its as though I thought that if I wanted something too much? God will take it away from me. Contrary, dont get me wrong, there are times when you want things that are no good for you.. of course God is not going to give you. But, not even hoping or wanting things? is messed up. Our God only wants to prosper you, to give you the best of best, how does He do that? You need to first expect, live with an expectancy that you'll be victorious , that good things can happen to you, to dare to place yourself in a situation that is beyond yourself, to dive head in first... so God can come in and make it happen for you.

Raw emotions, raw thoughts, but it will get clearer as I think it through.

God is showing me so much, showing me that I do not understand Him , that I doubt Him, His never changing characteristics, He only wants the best for me, how can I think that He does not want to give? To the extend of not even daring to step out, not even having faith. It is okay to hope, to want, to ask my sweetheart, was what He was whispering to me. The difference is.. to ask, to hope, to want but to understand that sometimes He does not give / answer not because He is not listening, but because you are not ready. That the end product/blessing, should not determine your faith in Him & His promises.

He's teaching me, telling me, to let Him do the driving, my hands off the wheel, He's going to take me thru an adventure. To be comfortable with feeling, to ask, to hope, to want.. but having that immense faith that believes/expects it to happen but.. resides in that truth that even if it doesnt, He is still true, He is still faithful, He is still never changing. Its as though He's telling me that , Amanda Amanda Amanda.. you want to reach new heights? Come along with me. If you do not ask, if you do not hope, if you do not want enough, you'll always be only doing mediocre work, nothing great, nothing spectacular, because you are relying on your own strength, within your own comfort zone sweetheart.. so failing is a very low probability because you dealt those cards on your own.. But if you come along with Me, I will take you to higher highs.. teaching you to step out, to relying on Me instead on your own strength, to garner more faith in Me .. that is only going to happen if you my dear, will step out.. step out and learn to be ok, to be a human with emotions, needs, wants, it's okay to ask my dear.. It's okay. Just always trust me.. Be close to my heart, be after my heart.. I only ever want the best for you sweet heart.. if your earthly father will give you everything, what more your heavenly Father?

My dear heavenly Father is teaching me how to love first by being okay with having emotions, emotions that I entrust to Him instead of handling it on my own. This… is a first.

Daniel 3v13, having faith like the 3 boys, never wavering faith, non circumstantial faith.

Goodnight.