To tear down those walls, to tear down and destroy all those defense mechanism theories ive built up over the past four years, to slowly step out and be open. First time in 4 years , i admit my theories are semi flawed. Some stands some were just purely habits, unhealthy. At the end of the day, when it all begin on a clean slate, i dont know but i hope somehow or rather , you'll be standing there. Otherwise, hopefully someone well suited.
Work, that one slot. Need to focus , need to get it. Where's that motivation mandy? Dig deep and find it, no procrastinating anymore. Even if its just one, you can be that one.
God I pray you open my eyes to new things , open my heart to accept everything , open doors that I can finally step into and feel at home. Thank you once more for my family, my wonderful sweet family, thank you for forgiving my shortcomings , my wonderful awesome support group. And thank you for every single day in my 21 ish years of life. Striving, for the better in life and not lose sight of what is important. Balance, i think i use that word a countless times. I still trying to achieve that ; realizing that it comes easily with you around to guide me. So here, thank my hand, let me be planted.
xxxx be my source of strength and give me wisdom to see things in the long run. give me skills to work around people and love them with a open heart.
xxx, i miss you i think.
