emotionally incapable.

Saturdays breeze.

"To catch a cheap ride and go through the motions for just one night only.

such a cheap shot to attain a sort of emotional balance.

to play pretend that your normal, that your capable of, not just fun, but having a heart that could be given freely, emotions that you can twirl with and give without considering the options and the tons of decisions to make . I take alot of comfort that these emotions are not gone through solo alone but being experience by millions out there. That tummy rolling and feeling that cache in your throat, feeling the urge to suddenly choke at real life profession of that word Love. Not Love as a noun but Love as a verb. Then the realization of that emotion will drive anyone insane. What keeps balance is that watching it on screen or in books seems plausible, with no dying urges to get out and play pretend. However, seeing it around real people, with that real passion present around in the air, i feel the need to get out and breathe. And wonder, how can they say things like " here i am, my heart is yours".

Something is dying , something is twisted.

& I can only pray, that I am not alone in this and that God gives me a door that I can open."

~ Emotionally handicap.