old times

Today was a good day, good day but crazy cause my flu and cough was escalated in the cold cold office. Brrrrrr (: but shucks oh well.Met a couple of good friends for lunch & reconnect with old churchies and had a surprisingly good time!

Anyways i am gg to crash, need the rest. Dont want to approach the new year being this sick.

Goodnight.

xx

They say , puppy love is the hardest to let go but the strongest emotions you can ever feel.

What say you?

Symposium

Ancient Greek Philosopher , Plato presented a theory in his philosophical text Symposium about how the Soul mate theory came about.

He said that ,humans originally consisted of four arms, four legs, and a single head made of two faces, but Zeus feared their power and split them all in half, condemning them to spend their lives searching for the other half to complete them.

[Primeval man] could walk upright as men now do, backwards or forwards as he pleased, and he could also roll over and over at a great pace, turning on his four hands and four feet, eight in all, like tumblers going over and over with their legs in the air; this was when he wanted to run fast …Terrible was their might and strength, and the thoughts of their hearts were great, and they made an attack upon the gods ... Doubt reigned in the celestial councils. Should they kill them and annihilate the race with thunderbolts, as they had done the giants, then there would be an end of the sacrifices and worship which men offered to them; but, on the other hand, the gods could not suffer their insolence to be unrestrained. At last, after a good deal of reflection, Zeus discovered a way. He said: 'I have a plan which will humble their pride and improve their manners; men shall continue to exist, but I will cut them in two and then they will be diminished in strength and increased in numbers; this will have the advantage of making them more profitable to us. They shall walk upright on two legs, and if they continue insolent and will not be quiet, I will split them again and they shall hop about on a single leg.'

—Aristophanes, Plato’s Symposium, ^[1]

According to Theosophy, whose claims were modified by Edgar Cayce, God created androgynous souls, equally male and female. Later theories postulate that the souls split into separate genders, perhaps because they incurred karma while playing around on the Earth, or "separation from God". Over a number of reincarnations, each half seeks the other. When all karmic debt is purged, the two will fuse back together and return to the ultimate.^[2][3
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^{Oh these ancient theories always fascinate me, bought another new book today.}

^{Goodnight gorgeous.}

^{" i kept everything remotely us in a box, how many years later some things still linger with your scent drives me insane, besides, your tied to a memory. So long time ago, its nothing but just a blur. "}

Sniffles.

" The Paradox of Our Age,

We have bigger houses but smaller families,

more conveniences, but less time.

We have more degrees, but less sense.

More knowledge, but more problems.

More medicines, but less healthiness.

We've been all the way to the moon and back,

but have trouble crossing the street to meet the new neighbour.

We built more computers to hold more information to produce more copies then ever.

But we have less communication.

We have become long on quantity, but short on quality.

These are times of fast foods but slow digestion.

Tall man but short character,

Steep profits but shallow relationships.

Its a time when there is much in the window but nothing in the room"

beautiful pretty typo lanterns lights.

Today since i took MC probably for tomorrow too, been running a tad of a temperature plus coughing like a mad silly woman.

Anyways since i stayed home today, i decided out of nowhere to pack my entire room.

It always surprise me the amount of things that is being thrown away, like 3 giganto bags!

And yet till my room seems really full.

Anyways made space for my seemingly growing book collection,

packed and sort my lecture notes, clean and cleared letters.

Anyways, i've got 3 boxes full of letters. One since like pre s

chool, the other from the entire stretch of sec, the other is till now.

Its insane, but i really love writing and receiving letters.

I read some of them, words cannot express how much i laughed through them ,

reminiscence the past, realizing how i havent spoken to some in ages, how some of them have left my life ,

how many of them are still around. Plus I took the typo lanterns stanley gave ,

fixed it up and decorated my room. Check it out! (:

PRETTY LIGHTS, haha makes me happy. So all in all, good fruitful day!

Letter box. (:

Gotta crash now. Goodnight lovelies.

Broken Arrow.

Breathe deep, smell that brand new fresh air that washes your mind anew.
For the year has come one full circle, heads turning around the year has come & passed.
Its scary for this year has nothing but aplenty of changes for me.
New mountains to climb, old achievements , new secrets, false truths,
hearts anew and broken , finding & being close to God , wrestling with the past & self,
battling with emotions and tearful nights, appreciating the way Life has turn out.

All in all, it was a bitter sweet year, gotta embrace the changes and look forward.
I still have so much laughter I cannot contain, too many tears that got lost in the midst of the joy.
The sun still shines brightly, the sky is still the limit, the heart is still beating.

Here's what I have been up to!

hahahaa im lazy to post the photos up so here's just christmas joyous!



Yesterday was a fun loving looong day!
early morning mashing potatoes , to moo's place , to ed's place , to adam's ,
tron! and singing sillys has left with me with a bad sore throat.
But I slept like from 3am to 5pm.
hahahahahaha, it felt good , finally.
If i wake up tomorrow with a bad throat, i might take MC.


Okay kitty cats, I am off.
Goodnight.


" sometimes you faze me still, no more
but baby im a firework, you're no longer on a pedestal of my life "

Merry Christmas

Sweeties! (: Merry Merry Jolly Christmas.

For the past 24 hours, I have been having an awesome Christmas. (:

Super duper awesome. It can only get better.

Off to my bestie place now!

Have an merry jolly christmas!

xx

Undercover boss

Sniff sniff, i just watched Undercover Boss on BBC knowledge.

Its touching and its amazing how even in a big corporation like some,

they manage to be a family. A big nice family.

And how bosses are willing to dive down and understand their workers in the front line.

Hence, improving their work life.

Sniff sniff, hahaha. Gooood night!

" Take pride in the little things "

Glass pear

Lovers come and lovers go,
Once they lived but now they're ghosts,
Walking the streets they used to know like shadows.

People disappear every hour and every year,
Sometimes I believe they're here like shadows,
Like shadows.

Who can you trust, in this place?
And whom can I put my faith?
If you're real, then show me now,
Who you are.

How can I love, without grace?
Shine a light on your face,
If you're real, then show me now,
Who you are.

Blowing like a secret wind,
Pouring on my naked skin,
Like a river flowing in the ocean.

And when I turn to see your face,
I saw a joy I could not place,
Vanishing without a trace,
Like a shadow in the sun.

Who can you trust, in this place?
Where can I put my face?
If god is love, then why the world the way it is?

How can I love, without grace?
Shine a light on your face,
If you're real then show me now,
Who you are.

My ghost.

Like I say, if your as indecisive as yours truly, gotta keep your hands to yourself.

when play around , sitting on the fence is your thing, be careful of your steps.

Say , the heart chooses what it wants.

Desiderata.

Go placidly amid the noise and the haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.

As far as possible, without surrender,
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even to the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons;
they are vexatious to the spirit.

If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain or bitter,
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.

Exercise caution in your business affairs,
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals,
and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love,
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment,
it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.

Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be.
And whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life,
keep peace in your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.

" Dont be reckless with other people's heart ,don't put up with people who are reckless with yours"

Isnt it beautiful? This poem.

Take heart and breathe in the words like it was the only thing that feeds your soul.

I had a great great weekend. Tiring but super great.

Thank you God for that christmas gathering , for making it easy and amist great people who loves You.

Thank you for the wonder time spent surrounded with people who loves me.

I wonder if mr neverland would make me happy, what do you think God?

(:

I hope Monday would be awesome.

No! It definitely will be!

Goodnight.

Pointing fingers & tooties rolls.

"First I was dying to finish my high school and start college.
And then i was dying to finish college to start working.
Then i was dying to for my children to grow old enough so i could go back to work
But then i was dying to retire.
And now i am dying.
and suddenly I realized I forgot to live.

Please don't let this happen to you.
Appreciate your current situation & enjoy each day.


- To make money we lose our health,
& to restore our health we lose our money.
We live as if we are never going to die
and we die as if we never lived."


I needa to start getting rooted.
I had an amazing Saturday , got a glimpse and definitely a good feeling of what used to be and how much I missed out on. I used to resent and felt bad for myself for not being as much as a part of that group as I was, but I learned that , as life passes by , I will have more things on my plate, and still 24 hours 7 days a week , 12 months , 365 days. So you take some and leave some, try your best to stay in the loop, drop out sometimes cause life takes a toll, but always make sure, the people you care about , knows you care. Dropping a text occasionally takes only 10 seconds at most. If they dont understand , or get mad at your, pardon them, they probably misses you. Or, you just didnt show them that you care.

So remember, if you love someone, if you care about someone, remember to let them know.

I had tons of laughter, tons of memories flash backs, how the entire group changed, new people, old people, how different it is. Sometimes I still miss that friday group. That never fails to make me smile and look forward to it, we were a happy bunch of silly people.

Work tomorrow! And I appreciate my situation and my life and I lift up my Monday to God.
Today during sermon, it was about, investing time and money into things that are uncertain and are going to be ruin in the end, what you spend your time & money on, reflects your inner values.

Goodnight beautiful people.


~ Sometimes, I still blame you , blame you , for what exactly I dont know. Maybe for how sometimes I feel, all those emotions rattles and keeps me at bay, doubting myself. If I got one shot, I will still have taken it.
& I should keep that thought out of my mind.

x

emotionally incapable.

Saturdays breeze.

"To catch a cheap ride and go through the motions for just one night only.

such a cheap shot to attain a sort of emotional balance.

to play pretend that your normal, that your capable of, not just fun, but having a heart that could be given freely, emotions that you can twirl with and give without considering the options and the tons of decisions to make . I take alot of comfort that these emotions are not gone through solo alone but being experience by millions out there. That tummy rolling and feeling that cache in your throat, feeling the urge to suddenly choke at real life profession of that word Love. Not Love as a noun but Love as a verb. Then the realization of that emotion will drive anyone insane. What keeps balance is that watching it on screen or in books seems plausible, with no dying urges to get out and play pretend. However, seeing it around real people, with that real passion present around in the air, i feel the need to get out and breathe. And wonder, how can they say things like " here i am, my heart is yours".

Something is dying , something is twisted.

& I can only pray, that I am not alone in this and that God gives me a door that I can open."

~ Emotionally handicap.

Sweet cherries bonito.

Hello jello world.

I havent blogged in awhile since work as you know.

Neither have i been gymming so i have been growing sideways sorta.

Soo thus my week has been filled with healthy food and finding a new passion for work outs no matter how tired i am. and sinting for like working out with me and what, i am so weak i cramp both my legs while doing tummy exercises. hohoho hahahaha so embarrassing. Oppsy still though I had two tall starbucks today. what to do, hoho.

Okay the weekend is here so i am happy.

sad because my colleague nigel is leaving ):

so that means work is just going to get more challenging.

and teehee i got a new laptop, teehee and i got no idea exactly how to use and i am far too lazy to read the manual. Will do it over the weekend. Its gg to be a good weekend packed with activities and loove (:

i wanna watch the match between barcelona and real madrid ! heard it was a really good match.

Okay sleep now! I wonder whose gg to win the bid to host the world cup!

~ If a being is as indecisive as yours truly, its best advice to keep your hands to yourself.