It is undeniably a case of cycle that I cannot let slip . How it reflects on me to some would be difficult to bear. The thought that it is actually expected and "normal" isnt good, isnt right. It is odd, it is very odd, it is odd and not right. Took me this long to see , took me this long to comprehend. But better late then never aye, I was trying too hard to hold onto something that isnt there anymore. I only saw what I wanted to see, cause its difficult and painful. Hope , in all due respect, is one of my favourites and beliefs, but in this sense, i cannot hope , cannot fathom that thought. Why? Cause there is nothing to fuel that hope. It's all self imaginery, delusional. Never again mandy.
I had a smashing week, up and downs , arguements, movies, food, new people, beers , see a young me, revisisted the past, fell down and got myself a boooooboo on the knee, all around me , hearts were broken and lies were said.
Happy halloween sugartots.
Goodnight.
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