The one that got away.

being mean, like whatever...

but... seriously...

seriously, have a good week.

Ahoy, sailors, im setting off. I need this break, to rejuvenate, to think through things, read up on some notes,

run everyday , swim a tad, hopefully get a bit of tan , spend some quality time with my rents.

I tend to be impulsive sometimes esp under these kind of situations.

I pray that God adds extra strength for my sweet pea while im away.

really cute!

Sometimes, it is really possible to be too late.

I had an exceptional awesome lunch that reminds me how it used to fit perfectly, a puzzle piece that just fit, when everything for a certain reason fell into place , the simplicity of it, takes me back and a smile on my face with a acknowledgement with the essential human organ that, it would have been nice if it did worked. Alas! Some bridges once crossed, cant be returned too simply cause its been burnt. It was the only way out; burning it. Its all separate entities now, still got some mending i am determined to mend. The new year is coming, some things needs to be fixed.

You were the mistake i needed to make, except it wasnt a mistake yet simply cause i drew out and ran away. I am worried if I dont make them now, then i'll make them at the least appropriate time. Ive been so good, maybe just once, i dont have to map it all out do i ? maybe just once i dont require it to make sense. But, hahah it isnt just because its wrong that is stopping me, its the fact that i do not want to chase, i do not want to see that smirk on your face, right in the beginning, subconsciously , this was a chess game to you. In order for it to be a game, there has to be two participants hence nothing wrong with it, I sat down, and made my first attacking move. Somehow or rather, it got more then just plain old games at least to me. Alarms rang, exclamation marks shooting all over in my mind. If i do this, to counter offer you, I am going to look like a idiot . Can I really handle it ? I used too, a bit too well. Can I really handle these sort of relation - ship? Am I going to propose that idea to you? I am glad I am going away. Why am I considering this? Is it really cause I am lazy to find another outlet? Was it really even a outlet? It shouldnt be that difficult is it? Am I seriously gg to risk messing my mind up?

// It's not the goodbye that hurts, its the flashbacks that follows.

see you munchkins.

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