Barely a week away.

~ yeah, remember that, opportunity comes, grab it.

Its like when it comes to you, my entire life, being, mindset, dreams , theories deserts me. It's as though, its two different person. One that knows what she wants, what she deserve, what she needs , with tons of dreams that needs to be fulfilled, working slowly but surely towards it. The other pretty much shelf all of that up and is so delusional, its difficult to believe. I'm turning 21 in barely days , with tons going on for me, working , my family , my friends , parties , sports, gym , i look good enough for myself, sometimes i forget im all that & so much more and still believe im nothing, like when i was 17..

maybe cause you had me when i was nothing, left me when i was nothing.

I cannot wait.. i worry about this saturday but i would love for it to come & really have a good good time surrounded by most of my love ones.

Worked so hard in the gym, i miss the gym, heart pumping enough for me to clear my brain, punching all the stress away , i know i am gg to wake up with a ache..... but. love it.

Goodnight, 5 freaking more days.

I'm scare.. but excited.

(:

xx