Breathe.

So that’s the best advice that I could give - just keep moving forward and don’t give a crap what anybody thinks. You know, just keep moving forward and do what you have to do, for you.

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—	Johnny Depp

I don’t know why we put things off, but if I had to guess, I’d say it has a lot to do with fear. Fear of failure. Fear of pain. Fear of rejection. Sometimes the fear is just of making a decision, because what if you’re wrong? What if you make a mistake you can’t undo? Whatever it is we’re afraid of, one thing holds true: that by the time the pain of not doing the thing gets worse than the fear of doing it, it can feel like we’re carrying around a giant tumor.

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—	Grey’s Anatomy

Im embarking on a secret mission, i'm going to flip me little wings and fly. Finally a compromise my daddy and i have,
finally he understands that its not me fickle minded stuffies
but being open to opportunities that are presented and not being afraid to explore to go to uproot and leave.
Most importantly, I think we are one step closer to the fact that even though we are so similar,
i want different things as what he does.

anyways lately I think i've been thinking a bit too much, usually I already think about random stuffs like far too much but lately, maybe because of conversations that im having with my friends
and mainly my daddy, my brain is currently always in over drive.
Working a bit too much, figuring a bit too much out, my daddy says i m just afraid but the thing is, im not denying that I am afraid.
Afraid & utterly confused. It's scary how life is within your finger tips to create, scary how people just go through motions and norm and not go further, to push the boundaries, to challenge yourself.
Scary how easily I can fall into that lope and go in circles never feeling satisfied with life.
Scary the vast number of many people are not satisfied with life. Sure the number of people who has it all, who are achieving and are happy doing what they are doing, are very minimal , and alot of us gives up without trying because why? it's not being realistic.
But here I am to say, Why cant it be you ? That little percentage of people that has it all, define by themselves, not necessary wealth & power, but what makes them happy, why cant that little happy group consist you?

No one said it was going to be easy, no one said it wasnt going to be scary? I am inevitably stressed and feeling very breathless. Like I lost my footing on the solid ground and struggling to figure a way out and up again. Being very afraid to make a mistake, being perhaps maybe the only thing that stands between me and me supposedly dreams , is me. But this time, I'm going to take chances. Leaping off ...

So I think I need to learn to breathe, let go , stop trying to figure things out that cant be explain, afterall we are all just human. Its a sad excuse, but it's a true.

& I struggle alot with my issues, i;ve alot tons of them.
random much, but theres this one person i wanna sorta date since i wss what? puny.
hahaha random line end to a rather serious post.
but! on the lighter note, i was one of the victims to pheromones this evening when presented to 50 hot eligible bachelor.
How am i ever gg to settled when I am fantasizing about someone as yummy as some of em?
Goodness gracious.
But thats for tomorrow's worry.

nice new song aye.


okay ive gotta sleep, got a event to do tomorrow!
xoxo, mandy.