You see, either ways I'm getting out of here. Even if its for a short period of time, I feel like I need a breath of fresh new air & atmosphere & environment. Scary but it's thrilling . Sometimes I feel this place is too small for me to stretch. I guess sometimes you need a place where you know these people are going to see you just once and only once. The things you would do and say would be different.
Emotions run high and dry. Sometimes you feel so uncertain about the place your in right now, you don't exactly feel like it fits and it's like a itch i cannot scratch. And I do believe, there will be a point in life where you just stand there and think about everything and realize with a conviction that your exactly where your supposed to be in life. I guess, I just havent found my niche.Or maybe, sometimes being this close distance with you makes me uncomfortable, makes me cautious to a certain extend , feel like sometimes I breathe easier when either of us are on another continent . Or maybe, I'm just looking for an excuse. Because the people who loves me are right here. But still, I feel an undying undrying urge to go a thousand miles far away. Is it nessecary to make all those millions? would they make me happy? Sure, to a certain extend of course. I sure hope I learn how to balance & I sure hope they would understand the decisions I'll eventually make and they wont stop me.
xoxo, mandy.
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