bite.

I am going to pick a fight with you simply cause you are plain old childish.

boys vs men.

you cant go back after you are surrounded by men,

true? perhaps.

mandy my dear mandy mandy, keep your hands to yourself.

remember promises, remember your dreams , remember the lines you cant cross!

Brick Walls , though it is seemingly harmless.

Thus, insanely harmful.

xx

Un love you // Chasing after.

Sailor says hi.

// Themed: Elton's 21st Pirate Party.

// Ahoy! Accordingly to that previous textbox, I am taking charge , fully , okay not exactly, but reclaiming back at least half of my self choices decision making tool . If I do not chase, if I do not seek, if I do not move forward, who on earth is going to do that for me? After awhile, people tend to get comfy and then they stop pushing boundaries. Well, that's about to change for me. Been talking about it for so long, i am going to kick it into motion. I hope I do not overthink it, I hope I balance a sense of adventure with my mind still ticking logic. Give me a reasonable 6 months , if all is good.. I will finally do it. Mandy mandy.. stick through with it.

21 years old and not getting any younger.

Theres a inner void, dissatisfaction , I've outgrown this circle. Time to move on.

I understand that I can spend my entire life chasing and still not be happy

but, Happiness to me is not a noun, its more of a verb term,

it comes and it goes, but it'll always come around again.

I cannot stand not chasing anything, so here I go. Putting a quarter of my foot out there.

Picking it all up and piecing it together.

If you want to dream, dream B.I.G.

Sunday lazy afternoon post.

" For those I love, I will sacrifice "

Bunny says hi .

// Themed : Halloween.

Family time now.

xx tata kitty cats.

Dont you remember?

"Don't You Remember"

When will I see you again?
You left with no goodbye, not a single word was said,
No final kiss to seal any seams,
I had no idea of the state we were in,

I know I have a fickle heart and bitterness,
And a wandering eye, and a heaviness in my head,

But don't you remember?
Don't you remember?
The reason you loved me before,
Baby, please remember me once more,

When was the last time you thought of me?
Or have you completely erased me from your memory?
I often think about where I went wrong,
The more I do, the less I know,

But I know I have a fickle heart and bitterness,
And a wandering eye, and a heaviness in my head,

But don't you remember?
Don't you remember?
The reason you loved me before,
Baby, please remember me once more,

Gave you the space so you could breathe,
I kept my distance so you would be free,
And hope that you find the missing piece,
To bring you back to me,

Why don't you remember?
Don't you remember?
The reason you loved me before,
Baby, please remember me once more,

When will I see you again?



sigh, difficult times , i do stupid things and measures that are not necessary. the way i abuse myself is horrendous but necessary in this case of getting well , the kind of scenarios i create in my head is scary thus a red light was shown . Reasoning going back and forth, a minute of being okay, a second of deep ache, a minute of logic and thinking this is unnecessary and my old self laughing back in the mirror , mocking me for the fact that its a joke that i am feeling this way. of all the years how i fence and de fence and block and wriggle my way out of situations, sigh, this time , wide open and whats left is pretty much half empty.

my body needs to catch up, it needs to be contained and controlled and turn away and not just walk away, but please run away. run as fast as you can please mandy. Just a wee bit, just a wee bit difficult now.

how do you put an end to something that never had a beginning to begin with?

please i pray , my emotions needs to catch up.
what happened, happened, what moved , moved, what wavered, wavered, what was seen , has been seen , what was felt, felt, just breathe, accept and off you go love. sometimes you just always harbor an unhealthy hope , thats beyond logic. sigh

xx
i am way toooooooo coooooooool.
older and wiser, so please mandybobo , stop being a train wreck and get on with it.

meow x2 , " Follow your heart, but! take your brain with you. "

With a heart like this, I cannot wait till it happens.

Got to be patient , at least now i know,

sigh hahahha not so closed up anymore.

Nevertheless, picky.

I hope we go to aussie!

me wants a tattoo again lately.

uh oh, considering im older now,

working... it is so much more possible.

Hip hip hip meow.

Slowly but surely, hohohoho i feel the entire me seeps in again.

Me kick ass, cause i am awesome.