That smile that brings back the yesterdays.

You see, either ways I'm getting out of here. Even if its for a short period of time, I feel like I need a breath of fresh new air & atmosphere & environment. Scary but it's thrilling . Sometimes I feel this place is too small for me to stretch. I guess sometimes you need a place where you know these people are going to see you just once and only once. The things you would do and say would be different.

Emotions run high and dry. Sometimes you feel so uncertain about the place your in right now, you don't exactly feel like it fits and it's like a itch i cannot scratch. And I do believe, there will be a point in life where you just stand there and think about everything and realize with a conviction that your exactly where your supposed to be in life. I guess, I just havent found my niche.Or maybe, sometimes being this close distance with you makes me uncomfortable, makes me cautious to a certain extend , feel like sometimes I breathe easier when either of us are on another continent . Or maybe, I'm just looking for an excuse. Because the people who loves me are right here. But still, I feel an undying undrying urge to go a thousand miles far away. Is it nessecary to make all those millions? would they make me happy? Sure, to a certain extend of course. I sure hope I learn how to balance & I sure hope they would understand the decisions I'll eventually make and they wont stop me.

xoxo, mandy.

& Guess what? This always happens. But if you think about it, wouldnt just spending time , chilling , laughing at this level be better then nothing? Is it necessary to make it a make or break situation?

xoxo, off to schooooool.

So here we go , again.

Hello boys & girls and munchkins.

Screaming at the top of our lungs , seeing red over different matters , sleeping in the extreme corners of the bed .

We always have our moments.

Still dont know what on earth we are doing but at least this is what you & I both can handle.

xoxo , manddddddy.

HAPPPY 23RD baby V , VANESSAAAA , LOVEEE ALWAYS.

Of many waits

Just telling yourself that. It's true.

I hope tomorrow quiz goes well. I sure hope my weekend would be a.w.e.s.o.m.e .

I hate pimples on my face now, they make me wanna stay home and not go out.

Oh wait, I already did that. hahahahaa

I am going to get a kitty or a pup or a rabbit.

Back safe boy, hope to see you soon.

down to mall lanes.

No seriously! Would someone get me a kitty pretty please? I've been pretty obesessed with em after seeing Nazzie's kittens. Aye, someone get me a kitty please? Those sorta fluffy ones ? Please?

hehe.

xoxo, mandy.

But if you would get to know me, again.

Last week it was everything but slow. I had such a killer weekend I thought I might fade off. Nevertheless, it was nothing short of awesome-ness.

. Morning lectures , after lectures studies.
. Lunch at Adam Road with munchkins.
. Shopping for awesome buttercake ingredients!
. Dinner with Mama and kongkong together with relle leo melo drew
. Baking together with Maria Relle Leo Melo Drew for Mama's bday!
. Surprising mama with our cake with jeet

. Reunion last 2 saturdays with our drew and leo, happi happy all neath bunny (:
. More lectures

. studying with jooooeee
. Zam dislocating his knee during soccer!

. Shangri la event with tessa
. Hot stuffs Mr. A representative presenter
. Hot stuffs Mr. A photographer
. Legs killing after 3 hours of presenting but yummy food like usual
. Met UB peeps at Brewerkz at Riversidept
. Knock back a couple of cold slurp slurp booze
. Met terence tong!

. Stayed over Naz's place for Downtown Canon event

. Weather blazing like no one else's business
. Died on the stupid pirate ship with melo laughing at me all the time
. Knocked out at naz's place with melo
. Chelsea won (:
. raining chill out do not for 8 hours
. Laughing a retard with Melo
. Sash winning Asian Women Comp (:

. Eric took me to sash's place to shower all change
. Picked me after to Singhui's 21st birthday

. Contemplating to snap my hair short again

. Yummy desert , cupcakes , beautiful people , happy people

. Sunny sides UP (:
. Laughing like a retard with melo again
. Left around 1130pm, headed to sash's place to surprise her when she comes back

. Snap snap secret hush hush photos with Melo , exciting , thrilling , she telling me how to where to hide if someone comes in , planning when to send those photos, if ever considering , hahahahaha!
. Studying , waiting for sash to come back

. Surprised her, catching up, study a bit, sleep

. Late for quiz ):
. Depressed from quiz ):
. Kevin came by for a wee bit , Nazzie too!
. Buying stuffies from malay bazzar

. Skipped lecture today , slept till 4pm.

* Randoms

. I still need to buy myself a water bottle
a IPOD!!
Watching runs of America Got talent makes me wanna learn how to dance and sing better !
Must go sign up for BT

Make more appointments

Go back to church

Do actually catch up with friends I havent seen in a long time

Gym & Swim tomorrow (:

I want to host SINGAPORE GOT TALENT!

City lights shine down upon the place that I call home
Surrounded by a million but I feel like I'm alone
And I might be a nobody to you
But if I'm playing, would you listen?

If you would get to know me
Maybe you would love me
I'm so ordinary

Dragging 'round an old guitar that I can't even play
I fade into your background like a piece of yesterday
I might be a nobody to you
But somewhere they're gonna listen

If you would get to know me
Maybe you would love me
I'm so ordinary
And if you would let me know you
Maybe I would show you
Wouldn't we be something?

Sad the way we always seem to pass by one another
Hiding, so afraid of the things we might discover
Caught up in a moment that only you can live in
You never know who's giving the air that you might breathe in

Get home safe yeah, baby boy.

xoxo, mandy.

Pop that hat baby.

You would kill me if you knew what I did. But then again, you might actually love me.

Shoulda, Woulda, Coulda ; been yours baby.


I need to sleep, like never been so drained in a long time.
I watched runs of America Got Talent, sniff sniff weep like a baby,
had a horrible quiz ): that got me pretty much depressed,
awesome mummy's cooking,giving my sister a lecture.
Updates soon! Busy busy busy!

xoxo, mandy.